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Stardate 4/24/2016 [Apr. 24th, 2016|09:51 am]
After battles with mysterious energy beings, switching personalities. We entered into a bit of pieceful space until we had to clear out space debris and recalibrate sensors.

Add engines have been shut down by transferred credits.

Sent com signal to friendly alien lifeform to set up potential stay at starbase ro for sometime in future.

Luminosity over and out.
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26 Hour Grind [Apr. 22nd, 2016|10:58 pm]
Another hour passes an hour past the last, and you still can't quit, responsibility nailing you to crosses.
We bier them walking another mile in shoes falling apart from our foot falls, one foot in front of the next.
it's a must not a want.

Why would we want another day of ashes and misery.
We ate ashes again today from all that was burned away as we step one foot then the next.
Passover is coming and the lights are going on and then going out one last great fireworks display for planet earth.
Until then we sweat until we can sweat no longer and our efforts leave us dry as we loose everything we once knew.

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A Mind of Graphs [Apr. 15th, 2016|01:19 am]
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For the Joy of Creation [Apr. 15th, 2016|01:17 am]
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The Door Slammed Shut [Apr. 12th, 2016|11:05 pm]
The door slammed shut, it was not the first time this door had shut but it would be the last, at least for this door.
The roaring scream spilled out into the small house, and the stench of an old wretch bourbon spilled all over.
Similar smells, similar screams.

This scream broke me, the last scream that would be uttered from those old black lungs.
Ends coming soon.
Ice Cold sweat, my brow furled,  my teeth clenched.
Rage, Red-Rage and Death.
My hands balling clenching up fists - the scream in my mind louder than all of the screams let out against me.
It was the whirlwind of the last breath, the spell of death cast upon me.
My color left me, I loosened, my hands released.
Rushing to the kitchen looking around, seeing a glint, knowing now what I needed. Cold steel.
So I rushed for it the knife, ugly kind of dull, but it would do this ugly job.

My hand clenching around the handle of the knife.
The scene whipped around me. My life passing dripping whipping. Time meaning less in this moment.
The days and the years all passing, all my time.

The person at the door getting closer.
"Ready for your beating” growled out “ready for your pain".
Their eyes and actions manic, a three day bender and the pleasure of violence on their mind.
"Where are you, you can't hide from me."
This time, this time I was not hiding but in my own way I was waiting.

The break too intense, the pain too intense.
It was worth giving it all up.

Imagining the blood, finally something to clean the terrors of two minds broken one broken from the start the other broken by life.
Now it was time to dance.
Not a word from my lips.
One tear falling from my eye.

My enemy, my family, coming for me one last time.
They crashed on me a bull.
Though their force was their end, as that ugly blade, pierced the ugly heart.

Standing there bloodied.
The whirr and spasm of lights came after I made the call 911 "It's an emergency and it's too late."

The End
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Computational Update StarDate 4/8/2016 [Apr. 8th, 2016|01:25 am]
I have computational assets so I can take my old computer that I have loved for over 5 years install linux on it and keep it running.
This computer I currently have was something I found added a ssd and maximum ram and the machine responds as well as the mac book pro I had a year ago from the divine.

The system is reconfigured and ready to go, now I just have to put the backups for writing and software and my environment while not the same will suit my purpose for the time being.

All in all it's good to be online again to do work that I want to do.

Life Log

11 Hour days have been the norm but slowly but surely I am getting closer to the self sustainability that I desire.

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Freedoming [Apr. 1st, 2016|12:07 am]

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Parallelism A Process Dance of Line [Apr. 1st, 2016|12:00 am]

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All lit mind [Mar. 28th, 2016|03:23 am]
Let me see the smudged nosed kids, let them live their first best destiny.
Let them solve the problems for which only their minds hold the keys.

May these children be the best of us, the brightest of us.
May they free us from the incarceration of our bad ideas.
Might they forge fundamentally new understandings de novo.

As they might live on any continent on any world.
Let thems set the constellations ablaze with the gifts of fire given.
Might they stand among us as titans.

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Akashic Log Stardate 3 28 2016 [Mar. 28th, 2016|03:06 am]
I have not had good access to computational resources in two months.
Finally I have the files from my windows ten crash after an update and none of the modes would recover the machine yet the machine works perfectly with linux on a live cd until I decide to install. It is no suprise really that the machine functions well with this os.

So much I have not been able to do because we as people have so much dividing out time, and our time so precious and we have so much to do as the our life leaves us moment by moment.
Though in this moment of vital life the elan vitale doth raise my heart among the stars in this exalted moment.

Still the journey in this life is real and it has moved me to this moment with these challenges both good and bad.
Two years ago I was struck by great loss and already with my state and the weariness that has been my experience it was too much and I was set with the fatigue of loss and suffering.

This day though is better though there are still trials in this day and moment.
These trials seem more manageable as I have experienced more of them and in that regard they seem less heavy.
So in this moment I make progress for tomorrow and still I have been able to help more, and directly.

Goals have been set and I see the machinery and tools to improve the causaul so I turn the crank and make the machina move. Improvements in efficiency and scope get me to the next step that moves me into a different phase then production and manufacture of device.

As idea will continue to be the drive, and purpose.

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